PEEKABOO PINK

...

2009-06-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

im living in a nightmare....
i kept begging to be lost.
to feel that im not living.

the pain..its unbearable...

the only one who can make it stop.

is you.

do you know...

im hurting.

for my baby tj

2009-05-30T21:25:00.002+08:00

funny day.

2009-05-29T22:07:00.002+08:00

its Baby & I's 25 months today!
Love you baby!!

Anyway we had Sakae Sushi again @ WM....
ate alot...can't believe it. hahah. expensive though.
oh well. its a special occasion..

went home after that....chat with Nad.

funny shit lol
Nad is one BLUR SOTONG..
thats all i can sayy.....

such a hot day today..
no mood to blog already!

SIAN.

ciao

dance this cumbia!

2009-05-21T01:00:00.003+08:00

COME SING WITH ME GUYS!

Baila Esta Cumbia - Selena Quintanilla Perez

Siento algo que me mueve
Un ritmo que me hace bailar
Tomen todos su parejas
Todos vamos a gozar

Baila, baila esta cumbia
Mueve, mueve la cintura
Todos, las manos en alto
Y griten, griten con locura

Baila, baila esta cumbia
Un ritmo, ritmo sin igual
Nadie se quede sentado
Todos vamos a bailar

(Repite todo)

Baila, baila esta cumbia
Un ritmo, ritmo sin igual
Nadie se quede sentado
Todos vamos a bailar

Baila, baila esta cumbia
Un ritmo, ritmo sin igual
Nadie se quede sentado
Todos vamos a bailar

Baila, baila esta cumbia
Un ritmo, ritmo sin igual
Nadie se quede sentado
Todos vamos a bailar

routines bore me.

2009-05-14T21:26:00.003+08:00

the current MTL on repeat.

things have been mundane lately, so there's not much to blog about.
life's pretty routined for me, sleep, wake up, eat, do the chores, feed the bunnies, bathe them, play with them, clearing out the rubbish, etc.

3 more months to go before school starts.
and it's gonna be pretty competitive.
but i'll learn as much as i can.

fashion management is the concentration, because
ever since little I've wanted a business of my own, not necessarily a family act
like my father hoped but anything's possible.

i hope everything goes well.

if anything, i hope for a single room apartment at St. Patrick's to be
the ultimate birthday present before school.

Dad, pretty please?

love all around

2009-05-01T00:38:00.002+08:00

I have THE bestest friends ever.

2 years anniversary.

2009-04-29T02:49:00.003+08:00

We are 2 years old!

Happy 2nd Anniversary my dear,
thank you for taking care of me all this while
and for being the one amazing guy in my life.

Let the past be the past, and we start anew.

I love you.

serving for 2 years.

2009-04-28T03:38:00.002+08:00

been bloghopping alot lately and i dunno if its a sheer coincidence,
or god really want me to pass by
and read their blogs so i could find some comfort in their posts.

what am i blabbing about you say?

Hubby is going for NS in...like, next year.
not sure when but i really hope its not something that will make him dread every damn day he's there...
i can't even imagine what they will make him do in camp...
after all, he is one very lazy & not-yet-ready soldier.
lol..his physical fitness need to improve and of course..his little toe.
i am terrified for him.

these days i kept asking him to work out,
stopped letting him light up a cigarette in front of me,
or even keep a box of cigarettes in his bag.

i took away his new box of cigs just today.

he worked with dumb bells the day before and his arms are already so tense.

i told him to rest and continue the workout once his arms are okay.

he will be the death of me.
if he gets hurt even once, i will call his sgt to take good care of him lol.
but i won't go to that extent.
i am not his mother after all.
lol.
and boy will have issues if his sgt looks at him in a different way.

i am a worrywart, and when he leaves i will be uncontrollable.
someone have to be there to distract my thoughts and hope for the best with me.
and also, pray that time passes by faster, to his ORD and never look back!

& start a new life with me after that.

the future is all i live for..

and i am excited...
but also a little bit scared.

How To Be starring Rob Pattinson.

2009-04-25T21:05:00.012+08:00

A wry coming-of-age comedy about twenty-something Art (Robert Pattinson) who gets dumped by his girlfriend, moves back in with his parents and hits a quarter-life crisis. Art uses inheritance money to indulge in retail and new age therapies only to end up enlisting the help of an eccentric self-help guru, Dr. Ellington (Powell Jones). Arts painfully funny journey to define his existence brings to the fore the dysfunctional relationship he has with his parents and the importance in his life of his odd-ball friends. How To Be is a timely look at increasingly common phenomena: grown-up children living at home, frustrated creativity and self-help.

---------------

while I'm still reeling with excitement over my unexpected surprise,
i am gonna share with you a very very exciting day for me!
TODAY!! last night i was surfing around, wallowing in the darkest of moods,
when, to my surprise, my sister asked if i wanted to catch the premiere
of "How To Be".

I cannot believe my luck!
Her friend Aiishah happen to win a ticket to the premiere and couldn't attend
so I went on behalf of her.
SUPER STOKED I AM!

i was looking around the internet hoping to find a website that host that movie because
i was pretty sure it won't be released in the theatres here..

Twilight Singapore answered my prayers!!
and to Aiishah, thank you!!

i swear, i have never felt like this before.
i feel like i'm a 14 year old again!

the movie was soo good,
i got to see rob in another light...
and i mean another light as in, not hot, very normal, awkward and funny kind of light!
first of all, he's a mortal, not a vampire.
second of all, he is very funny.
third of all, his facial expressions in the movie are priceless,
fourth, its a breath of fresh air, because its rob, acting as an idiot like the rest of us,
fifth, his hair is long and shaggy and sooooooo sexy.
last of all, ITS ROB! LOL.

and the highlight of the day IS!!!!
i got to meet the producer, Justin Kelly!!!

my heart was literally thumping so hard in my throat when i raced to the stage to ask him for a picture.
for a while there i almost thought that he could feel my heartbeat, lol me standing close to him!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

the Q&A session after the movie was nice and short, we got to hear the director, Oliver Irving and the actors in the movie respond to the questions from the audience..via Justin's phone,
it would have been NICER! if Rob was there.....HEHEHEHE.

We got to hear Johnny White who plays "Ronny".

And also Mike Pearce who plays "Nikki" in the movie.

i was secretly hoping he would call Rob..lol!
after that they gave away 2 autographed movie posters of Rob to 2 girls!!
ENVIOUS!!

Justin also signed my film festival book LOL AHHHHHHHHHHH I'M DYING!!

here's a little video i posted...
a few minutes into the opening of the movie.

i'm gonna hit the sacks now..
*yawn
byyeeeee~~!!!

lily's sick..

2009-04-23T22:14:00.004+08:00

i am so tired..
for the past 2 days i was up and couldn't sleep..
lily's sick for the first time and she has redness in her left eye.
(note: Lily is actually a male bunny..the name kinda stuck. Her male name is Lil.)
hehe.

so Mum & I took her (him) to the vet to get checked out..
it was surprisingly fast, the whole thing.
lucky we picked a day where there's not much people around.
so the doctor told us that the scratch on his eye was pretty bad..

she dropped Saline Solution in her eye...and it turned yellow..
so she switched off the lights in the room, and Lily's eyes changed color..
there's a huge blotch of bright green staining her eye...(the solution)
so I asked how bad was it...she said it was staining her whole eye,
it musta been pretty bad..

and we have to take her home and separate her from Rosey
(also a male bunny, and they are brothers from anotha motha..male name is Ro.)
don't ask me why i name my male bunnies flower names.
because i like lah!! hhehehe.
and my mum called him O.G. Rosey...OG...Rosey..OG...get it?!
hmmm..try to thicken the S part..to a G.....thats what old people do. lol

this is Rosey..

so we took her home..and now she's living outside of the cage, on the sprawling floor where she can run around.
Rosey was looking around for his brother..lols.
it was funny.

Lily got her own pet card, and she took her first photo at the vet!!
and she got her own clinic file too.
LOVELY!
i got to bring it home..

i learnt that there are many others like Lily's breed...
i saw a homeless Ah Di...a female Lily.
wonder if I put Lily and Ah Di together...
there will be so many Lily's and Ah Di's!!! HEHE.

okay enough bunny talk...
i'm just glad Lily's okay now.

gotta be the good mum
and give her different kinds of eye drops 4 times a day.
that means waking up every 5 hours at night.

poor baby. =(

hot N cold

2009-04-23T10:43:00.004+08:00

Hotncold - Katy Perry

Lyrics | Katy Perry lyrics - Hot N Cold lyrics

tingle mingle

2009-04-18T00:21:00.004+08:00

hello guys!
its a scorching hot day today isn't it?
very sunny.

today was a very quiet day at home.
spent my time surfing the net, whiling away the hours...
i've had this burn on my right wrist that's been irritating me since morning..
and rashes round my neck too..
i suppose its the hot weather....
i've been very tired, again, the hot weather can cast some sleepy spells.

i've showered like 4 times today, how crazy is that??
i hate it when it get too hot.
my face burns like its peeling off.

found out that Half-Blood Prince is coming in theatres in July! 17th!
i so can't wait!
and Emma's birthday is a few days ago..she's 19!
will be months till my own nineteenth.

anyway tomorrow i'll be looking forward to my sushi date.
with Baby of course =) =)
cant wait!

i missed today's 4E2 reunion... =(

some of us are missing in the picture..
i miss you guys!

anyone wanna plan for a BBQ soon?

i really feel like seeing everybody again.

one of my late-night webcam chat with Nad...
i wanted to see JOJO!
i've never smelled a cat sooo good in my LIFE!

and..sum up of this week for me..
it's been pretty laid back for me.

watched a couple movies this week..
Fast & Furious 4 & 17 Again.
Baby & I didn't like Fast & Furious 4...
although I did admire Vin Diesel's big arms... ;)

I was surprised 17 Again was so good.
Baby cracked up himself throughout the movie.
that's good enough for me =)
i thought it's gonna be a chick flick for him, but guess not ;)

i miss my friends...
everyone's starting school this week..
hello lonely malls and cinema theatres!

kay now back to Twilight fan-girling.
byebye

thrill seeker.

2009-04-07T23:34:00.004+08:00

okay, my sickness have totally gone away!

except the after-effects of flu, its getting better everyday.
i can't taste food at all, but hey at least i eat!

anyway today just bought the much talked-about thing in the whole world,
(jk) Twilight DVD~!!!!!!!!!!

DVD? Check.
Books? 3rd & 4th Check.
Mouse Pad? Check.

Posters?
1st & 2nd Book?
Figurines?
Bookmark?

STILL IN WAITING!

Hahahh I'm slowly collecting bit by bit.....
I'm trying not to watch the whole special feature thing in one day.
Trying. Hard. Not. To.

Its just sooooooo nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And...I am SO OVER EDWARD!!

Wanna know who I fell in love with in the movie?

ITS JAMES!

Very jealous of Victoria!
SHE KISSED HIM. HIS NECK. HIS BODY.
JEEZ those vampires are sooooo....HORNY! lols

I want a piece of HIM!

OOH!! BITE ME! MEEE!!!

Too bad his character died.. AHhhhhh James.

tomorrow maybe going for a job..gig..job gig. gig job?
hopefully its not too tiring..

back to reading now.
adios.

still sick.

2009-04-05T15:31:00.002+08:00

i haven't been going anywhere since thursday.
i am getting bored.

the flu is really very irritating.
supposed to meet Baby today but i woke up an hour late.
felt like a rusty stone.

i have Not recovered.
how inconvenient!!!!!!!

one week gone just like that.

and i'm gonna start on Breaking Dawn now.
boy, its a hell lot of pages.

eyes on fire.

2009-04-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling a bit better today..
and then the flu bug kicks in..making me sick all over again.
i hate medicines.
it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth and makes me sleepy all the time.
no appetite whatsoever.

it's been the 3rd day since i last saw Baby,
i miss him alot.
but i know enough not to let him come see me when i'm still contagious.

my heartbeat's not getting any slower, i'm scared it might overwork
and cause a cardiac arrest.
i'm thinking too much.

im curious to see the results the doctor had in his hand that day.
i panicked when he started mentioning the amount of red blood cells and white blood cells.
cos it will never guarantee something good..
but all's well and he only mentioned that something inside was infected.
i shuddered when i recalled his words.

the doctor was so nice (and handsome too)
so i recovered enough to be able to walk out and look for mum and sis.
alfy was there to help too.
thank you!

i hate medicines.
oh wait, i mentioned that.
don't you just hate the taste of medicine in your mouth?
it dries up your throat like nobody's business.

the time i spent at home was pleasant enough,
whiling away my time by reading Eclipse,
watching my favourite TV shows and petting my bunnies.

hopefully by the end of this week i'd be able to recover fully enough to go out.
i missed 1 week worth of movies at the cinema with Baby.
i need that fix..

i'm gonna hit the sacks now.
the stupid painkiller is making me sway even when i'm sitting on a chair.
hahah.

werewolf heat

2009-04-02T21:52:00.002+08:00

hello..its been long since i updated..
the most recent event that happened in my life was yesterday..
i always thought that i'm as healthy as a horse..
i actually thought it was just a 24 hour flu thing..

so the next day i went to sleep..
only to be awaken by the heat i was feeling from my body..
my head felt like its gonna melt.
and body pains were so intense..
i still could move around, so i searched for the thermometer,
which had been in my room the whole time..
so i measured my temperature and it measured at 39.5 degrees.
no kidding.

and this had to happen on April Fool's Day of all days.
39.5 degrees is not the normal temperature for a sick person,
so i panicked and called Dad, Mum & Sis..
they thought it was nothing serious..
told me to drink water and go back to sleep..

the nagging at the back of my head forced me to call my friends
to take me to the hospital..but to no avail.
and then i tried again with my parents.
this time though it really gave them the sense of urgency..
i could be retarded in an hour if i don't seek medical help.

arrived at NUH and was wheeled to the isolation room.
and bloody cold that room was.
i was told to strip..for Xray..
and being a frail girl i dont have much skin lol so i just covered myself with the blanket.
its awfully bright in there too..
lol...

the nurse put in the IV for me..and when she snapped something it hit my vein.
i jumped. lol.. and managed a small "Owww....."
should've seen the look on her face.
i hate needles. i really really hate them.

the doctor came in and asked me alot of questions..
and told me to take urine test ..
it felt like i was at the police station all over again.

after that i was told i need not be kept in the isolation room anymore..
so i sat outside..and slept..that stupid medicine made me drowsy but i still could hear my surroundings..

and this 50 year old woman, who obviously is a mother,
went to call her husband, her sons, daughter, and friends...
and told them the same exact story about the conversation she and the doctor had..
over and over again..until i know what she'll say..line after line.
and then she proceeded to curse the doctor, not ashamed by everybody who shot her an offended look.
hello? people are sick here and they need to rest.
not hear about your ingrown toenail problem..

she sounds like she was proud about her ingrown toenail being cut off..
she told the people on the phone how scared she was..and how she hates the doctor..
excuse me? all the doctor did was suggest the best thing for you and you went around cursing him? and followed him around and asking "so how? so how? so how doctor?"
i shot her 2 looks and then she was quiet.

i have a boyfriend with the same problem as her, and yet he doesn't complain.
and he's a teenager.
you are bloody old. you should know what pain is like by now..

if i wasn't so sleepy i would've have just screamed at her face.
she was just behind me.
and the room is so small. fucker bitch.
and she's a mom..and she can say "Fuck Off" and "Fuck" and "Fucking".
what the hell. woman, you just lost your bloody dignity, no respect for yourself and your family.

i hope you go through hell when your toenail is cut off.
and btw, "dressing" means bandage.
bodoh ah this woman.
act so clever.

absence.

2009-03-23T02:42:00.002+08:00

you know the thing about weekends...
i don't really look forward to them anymore.....

cos then i won't be able to see Baby...
which sucks....
and then...
i'm considering to go for the GSS Cotton On interview....
I'm not ready to give so much time for a job.....which is so far away from home.
and away from Baby..
no..

but i need the money....
SHIT why does everything have to be so damn complicated.

sorry i just spent 2 whole shitty days without Baby.

bummer that i didn't go to Azlin's birthday BBQ......
and bummer that my period chose to come on the first week of Baby's holiday.
er. not that meaning.

and this past week have been...mundane.
3 out of 7 days i was sick...
sleeping the whole time.
i just ate 1 pack of panadol...
in this whole week just to sleep...

i miss Baby.
and Dad's coming home tomorrow.

and I'm broke.

and i can't sleep.
i ran out of panadol.

i just watched the shittiest movie ever.
American High School.
featuring Aubrey "Slut" O-Day.
from Danity Kane?

can say it's like a porn video.
the whole 90 minutes of it.
yes it's that long. with mild nudity.
and a very stupid plot of a married teenager whose teenage husband is cheating on her with the sluttiest girl in school, and in the end wins Prom Queen at prom and decides to divorce her teenage husband and start a new life in college. with stupid guys in between yelling "AWESOME", a fat brother throwing himself in the dustbin and a dad who sleeps with the entire school.

it was POINTLESS.

i just gave you a whole synopsis of the movie.
i am that bored.

what a stupid week.

tomorrow's gonna be better.

weird sleeping patterns

2009-03-15T04:04:00.004+08:00

okay this few days i kinda developed like a weird sleeping habit.
i'd feel really sleepy towards the end of the day,
so i hit the sacks early, only to wake up 2 or 3 hours later,
parched and needing to pee.

so i did my business, drank water and guess what.
i couldn't go back to sleep.

so i went online to see if there's any videos to watch..
and lucky me Cycle 12 of ANTM just aired 2 episodes.

so now i'm stuck with this burning question.
should i go to sleep or stick with watching videos all the way till 5 AM?

i don't feel tired at all.

tomorrow i'm gonna go see Nad&Mic&Lun!!
hopefully.. i hope Mic comes by.
i need to see JOJO badly! lol.
its been so long since i visit.

my face is starting to burn.
the light is getting to me.

i'm rooting for Allison!

and LONDON!
WHOOOOooooo!

And have you seen eyes bigger than these?

She's Masha Tylna.. a model from Ukraine.

She is so blessed. Look at those EYES......oMg.

bad contractions

2009-03-14T17:06:00.002+08:00

okay i know the title doesn't really mean contractions,
because i'm not pregnant. lol

it just means that my tummy is feeling really weird right now.
its making me feel very uncomfortable.
not really pain but its just..contracting..

i swear i regret eating the (stale) garlic mashed potato last night,
because despite its deliciousness..it also contained milk, which can turn bad overnight.
shit.

and this pain is confusing me.

am i having pre menstrual cramps?

it cant happen today!
or maybe it can explain my behaviour this past few days....
i've been a heinous bitch to everyone lately.

is it me or does this post sound weird.

i'll blog next time when i feel less weird.

byebye

HUNGRY

2009-03-13T03:00:00.002+08:00

wahlau.

i'm so hungry.
can somebody please order me the whole sushi buffet plus the conveyor belt from Sakae Sushi
plus the Chef himself?

i'm dying.
i didn't get any sushi today.
the stupid sushi buffet is from 3-6? WTF?
and you have to leave at 6 sharp?
last order 5.30? WHAT FREAKING BUFFET IS THAT.

not happy.
i'd rather go PS eat Niu Rou Mian right.
at least it will satisfy me better.
cheap.
or Tom Yum.

why am i thinking about food so much lately!

i need my fix.

SUSHI!!!!

sick to my stomach.

2009-03-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

today is not a good day.
the bad cyst in my eye just refuse to go away.
it hurt when i touch it.

i just discovered two of the most disturbing things that i regret even stumbling upon.
upon closer inspection...
my eyes could've bled and turned blind...
the sick feeling continued to haunt me for the rest of the night.
tried to distract myself,
but it just won't let me rest.

i haven't had more than 2 meals today,
which i feel is so wrong.
my body is so tired, to compensate for the lack of sleep,
its telling me i need food for energy cos its constantly running low.

so in addition to all of the complains that i'm making about my day,
some irritants decide to be pests for the day and
add some more salt into my already gaping open, wound.

why am i so graphic about my life?
cos i don't wish to hide anything...
it just builds up like a volcano inside me
and today i just erupted.

yes, i blew up.
i screamed at the top of my lungs.

like a mad woman.

never saw that coming.

i know.

you're not sorry

2009-03-10T01:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19th BABY!

2009-03-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

Today's baby's 19th BIRTHDAY!!

Hehehe.

Woke up very early to start shopping for groceries...
Its my first time cooking by myself..preparing 3 separate dishes...

Anyway I made him a western meal..
Garlic mashed potatoes, Aglio Olio, my first time trying to cook it (it was not bad for a first timer) and Chicken breast Frittata...

Although I went on and added TOO much salt & lemon juice to make gravy for the chicken, it was overall rated 2/3 stars from the man himself, Baby. =D

Hahahaha.
Let me tell you...if ever we get married..the person whose gonna be manning the stove and cutting onions and shit is NOT gonna be me...
Baby will do great in the kitchen...and I'll just be taking care of the babies and other chores LOL
One can dream, can't she?

Here's the card I made for Baby...

And a snapshot of the meal I prepared..

Baby said he hated eating cakes
and he doesn't like sweet stuff so I got him a small mousse cake..

This was random..
taken when we had a sudden craving for sushi
and sweet beancurd with wasabi and soy sauce...
making me hungry already.

I'm taking him to maybe Sakae Sushi again or MOF for lunch tomorrow...
My Lasalle package has arrived!!
Gonna drop by the school on Monday to hand up the forms and confirm my place!

This month I got a couple parties to attend..
And I need some new clothes..
MANDY!!!

I am happy!
And Baby's happy!

I hope everyday I'll be this happy. =)

whooooooo

2009-02-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

my interview went well..
except that it wasn't 45 minutes.

it was 2 and a half hours of sheer pressure.
the group discussion just killed me.
i was speechless.
and being the most soft spoken one in the group didn't help either.
but i nailed it!

orientation starts July..
first day of class is on August 3rd.

i have about less than 5 months to burn..
getting a job now is not an option for me...
hehee!

great, just great

2009-02-26T14:09:00.002+08:00

my Lasalle interview is tomorrow.
i have yet to do 2 more pieces for my portfolio.

my workshop sketchbook has fallen apart.

my art therapy pieces are a mess.

labels are not done yet.

and best of all...

wait for it....

i sprained my neck.

a very bad sprain.

NOW HOW AM I GONNA TALK WITHOUT SEEMING AWKWARD & NERVOUS?

this is very bad.

pain in MY ass.

2009-02-22T14:37:00.002+08:00

been outside for 2 whole nights,
first night over at woodlands and in a few months, the bed has become uncomfortable.
wonder how i find it easy to sleep when it has been the bed i sleep on
when i'm in the worst state possible.

second night,
luck has run dry for me.
when i was about to enjoy dinner,
my aunt decided to give me a surprise visit.
food became unedible,
and my mood became worse.

then later that night i crushed my foot in the wheel of a bicycle.
the back of my right foot is bruised purple, and i'm limping.
its not too bad, considering that this is the first time i got a real injury.
lol.
feels kinda great.
i must be crazy.

while taking the bus to CCK that night,
one bitch decided to be a bloody pest cos she "thinks" i knocked into her.
well, bitch, i didnt touch your stupid placid yellow skin when i adjusted myself onto my seat.
what was the LOUD "TSK" NOISE for ? to let me know i knocked into you?
..haha. unless she thinks that she's so pretty and decided to be a bimbo about it
then i cant blame her for knocking her pretty flawless skin then.
should've seen the look on her face when i didn't make way for her to get out.
what, your butt very big is it?
HA HA .

& worse,
i'm living under the same roof with a pest who thinks she's all that.
*flinch* my *flinch* sister.
i am not ashamed to say that i hate her.
and that i'm glad that she's a very fat whore.

i feel like being a bitch to whoever decides to press MY buttons.
oh wait that doesn't sound right.
to whoever who decides to provoke me.

i am not weak.
just very, very angry.

Rin on the Rox

2009-02-17T22:53:00.002+08:00

Saw this on Ellen today and I thought of sharing...they're amazing.

I love their voices!
I got goosebumps listening to them.

Already got something for Naddie for her birthday.
I am so broke I can only afford (can't tell you hehehe)

nad's nineteenth

2009-02-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

so Nad's birthday is in a few hours..
i'm gonna go out and look for a present for her in awhile...

while im getting ready i get alot of facebook friend requests from unknown people
and this guy chatted with me on facebook telling me this over, and over again.

"you come on, in instanbul, we see, funny, you and me, travel photo."
"come in you, in instanbul"
"you boyfriend have????????"

next time i better be careful with accepting strangers...

valentine's 2009!

2009-02-14T23:47:00.007+08:00

In my hat....SO CUTE !

My Mr. Right-Mr.Valentine!

Hello lovebirds & singlies!

Today is Vday & Friendship Day!
How did you spend the day with your significant other/friends?
Mine was great!!

Met Baby at SSC...
His sis tagged along..was kinda shocked & awkward,
cos I didn't know how to act because
a) first time meeting her
b) she smiled, and said Hello, which is the opposite of how his family should treat me!
c) i was still shocked, really.

anyways, saw that Bapok again with the pink shades, pink striped top
& his silver stilletos..
kinda pretty LOL noooo he looks over 60 years old.

ANYhoos.
bought some candles & everything for our candlelight dinner at FCP.
bus-ed to FCP & climbed all the way up.
found the place swarming with kids & yusoffians.
yes, yusoffians, i saw like....10 there.

had our dinner, exchanged our presents
& slacked there till 8 pm..

Baby got me these!!
Hehe...I couldn't wait to open ALL of them.
therefore ruining Baby's plan hehehe.

I love you still BABY!!

A big card that says "I love you very much"

Carebear, another Rose card(LOVE!), a Bling "N" keychain,
Brownie from Mrs Fields!!

See that green bottle there? I made for Baby!

Thank you so much SCHMITPPYS!! <3<3<3<3<3

That's all for today!
I'm very happy!! Hehe.
Goodnight!!

funny!!

2009-02-14T02:38:00.000+08:00

bad day

2009-02-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

today is a very bad day.
first of all...........i woke up unwillingly.
second of all...............i couldn't find my CLOTHES.
and i found it, eventually ALL WET AND MUSTY because SOMEBODY didn't know how to put it straight in the wash if you have damp clothes.
common sense, hello ?

third of all...
i couldn't apply my makeup properly because my hands were shaky.
fourth, i accidentally YANKED my Korean crystals OFF my clip while trying
to pin it to my hair. (GONE IS MY FAVOURITE CLIP!!)
fifth, my hair was SO bad today that I considered cutting it all off.

last but not least.
I AM PMS-ing really badly.

and the trigger to all of this?

one pair of stupid leggings
and ONE irresponsible butthead in the house.

great!

& Nad's at the hospital again, if everyone must know.
Anyone who wanna visit her, tell me!
Admitted cos of blood clotting in her head, I hope she's alright now..=(
Get well soon Bestie!
i will be visiting her this weekend, or maybe tomorrow,
cos Sat&Sun will be busy for me..
not to mention the following Monday. sigh.
dreading it.

a little too not over you

2009-02-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

was walking around pasar biru..

looking for hair dyes..
i'm thinking of dyeing my hair, and cutting it to shoulder length short.
since my face shape is kinda off & on, like one day it will be so round and swollen,
and the next day it will be so long and thin, so i'm opting for a layered 'do.

wanna know why i'm considering of changing my hair?
this long hair is irritating the shit out of me.
like seriously.
its flat.
first of all.
& its frizzy, unfortunately.
blame the sudden impulse to cut my hair the other day.

its the first time dyeing my hair..
so i'm kind of lost in that department.
anyone care to help & suggest a few helpful things?

& rebonding the hair is out of the question...
its not a solution to solve the frizziness!
Liese hair products don't work for my hair too,
unfortunately enough.

imagine this hair, only a little longer.
notice the curl(argh!!) in the fringe and the frizz.

goodness.
how now? ? ?? ??

sick.

2009-02-09T18:44:00.002+08:00

i desperately need to rest now.
i have no idea why my shoulder bones are aching.
it started when i was out yesterday shopping with Mic&Lun.
meeting them was like having a chocolate fudge cake on a nice cloudy day.
warm & comforting. =)
thank you guys for being there.

went back to Mic's house since I was too lazy to part and go back to my own house.
hahaha. i know, dumb right but whatever.
its been so long since i saw them.

visited Nad at her workplace yesterday too.
i ate a whole pack of spicy chicken & triple cheese hotdog..
within mere hours.
drank 2 tall cups of coffee cos i was feeling so tired.

i was taking advantage of the fact that i was outside,
and yummy food were all around me.

and now i wake up with a sore back,
& crazy eyebags.

everyone is acting so pissy around me these days.
what the fuck is their problem.
go eat some chocolate and get laid or something.
they're giving others alot more stress than they already feel.

..

2009-02-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

im living in a nightmare.
constantly, i keep telling myself, i'm experiencing the real thing.
and in that instant i remembered that i cannot keep living in denial.
its really hard.

i'm tired..
so tired, i could sleep like a baby.
but i just didn't want to close my eyes and see everything.
everything that had happened, and the emotions that come with them.
it overwhelms me, and in a split second, i don't feel so tired anymore.
because i was scared, so scared of the future.
what might happen....
and i am tired of feeling uncertain.
i am anxious to get it done and over with.
i wish i could see the future.

i am so nervous, constantly feeling uneasy & panicky.
my mind would spin.
& i would feel the pain slowly creeping up on me.

everyday, i tried to wake up feeling better.
but instead, i feel alot worse.

i am so scared of remembering the images once i close my eyes.

its been three days.
i am far worse than a zombie.

i feel the regret. slowly building up inside.
i feel the shame, everytime i see my face in the mirror.
i feel stupid, for letting things happen.

i know that i have the sense & will to control my doings.
because it is me who is responsible for myself.

i have sunk, very deep.
and it will be a long time until i pick myself up.

i can only turn to God.

my tears are dry.
i couldn't cry anymore.

ttad,twg,STJ.

2009-02-01T15:28:00.004+08:00

currently reading,

the semi-autobiography by Nicole Richie.

a waste of my 2 hours last night, and my 19 bucks.

him, 2 years ago.
<3<3<3 so cute so cute!

woke up quite unwillingly, hence the headache.
i dont know how much i hate bus rides, in the front.

and i saw my first limo up close last night,
i wanted to get a glimpse of it again and to my surprise,
it went back to where me&Baby were sitting but this time, down rolled the window
and two teenage boys screaming "WHATS UPPPP!!!!" at us.

bloody teenage rich kids.

i swear i could've thrown my shoe right at their faces.
we were so close.

i thought Singapore don't allow limousines.
hmm.

anyway.......
my nineteenth birthday.
partying in a limo?
sounds like fun. loll..
we'll see...

been watching movies related to weddings.
not intentional, lol, but its very weird to me.
and its the Bunny season!!
so many baby Bunnies at the pet store,
guess how much is one small baby bunny!!
$400 !
=(=(=(

my Rosey & Lily have grown to be very big and long,
and very naughty and temperamental.

Baby's out to bai nian at his relatives today..

&& i'm so hungry!!!!!!!!!

rock, paper, scissors

2009-01-26T17:01:00.006+08:00

"No one dressed by me ever looks like an idiot."

Alice Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 1, p.20

Happy Year of the Ox!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Xin Nian Kuai Le!

hope everyone have a merry new year
& have overflowing ang paos on their laps
and full tummies
and happy smiles on their faces!

------

originally planned on stepping out of the house to find any bookstore
that is open to while away the day at, browsing books and buying them,
but thinking its an official holiday, no store would actually be open,
so i gave up and read about other books online,
even considering purchasing books online,
but gave up because it would all be too expensive if i convert the currencies
and add in the shipping charges.

so it was free online entertainment for me,
read up about almost everything there is to know,
lol now i dont think i'll be needing the books in the future.
but i would still like to read the books to know the details
and every little thing that happened in all the books.

i cant wait to finally realize the beautiful Bella Cullen
and to find out how Renesmee Cullen turns out.
and i cant wait, either to find out how i feel about every character
at the end of all the books up until i finish reading all of them.

i am officially obsessed with Twilight.
i know its abit too late, but hey,
Midnight Sun isn't out yet, and I'm starting on Eclipse soon,
so I'm in the middle! yayhoo.

anyone wanna present me with all four books for my early birthday present?
hehehe!
just kidding.

i shouldn't be...

2009-01-25T22:24:00.004+08:00

i'm in my own place again,
rekindled the love i had for words,
claimed back the flair i had for it,
not that i blindly disregarded it....

and now i have a hard time deciding.
should i stick to what i'll always love doing?
or should i try something new?

i'll know where i'll end up if i followed the former,
but what about the latter?

i shouldn't be scared about the future.
we had it all planned.
what year i'll be done with my degree,
and what year he'll be free from his commitments & his degree.

i know where he's headed.
but do i know where i'm headed?
there are two paths.

which one should i choose?

--------------

Dad will turn 51 tomorrow.
Sis got him something already.
Last year it was me.
So this year it's her turn.
We both know he don't like to spend money on clothes.
Everyday, every morning he'd always dress in the same outfit,
White shirt,
Black pants,
Torn, mismatched socks.
Everyday for work..

So we got him clothes, and I wanted to get him a candle,
a very big one, that says
"Dads are like sunflowers.......blablabla"
I couldn't remember, but I know I loved it,
unfortunately ALL the shops in WM are closed,
except the fast food ones.
bummer.

so, in advance,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABA!
<3 <3

----------

and i miss my baby boy terribly.
i can't stand not seeing him for very long.
he's celebrating CNY with his family & friends at his house right now.
i'm so sad i can't come.
that's what we get for wanting something so forbidden.

=(=(=(

7 more sketches.

2009-01-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

its gonna be a looonngggg weekend.

Dad's birthday is on CNY. Monday.
and the old man's been working his butt off since forever.
what should i get him?
i don't even know how old he is.
some daughter i am.
=(

gonna find out...
wait..he's born in..19...50..something.
maybe he's 51..
scratch that I'll check his table later!!

it's been a draggy Saturday...
so glad its night time.
don't know if i should go to the picnic tomorrow at ECP with my family..
or stay home and rot some more..

if i'm there, i'll be like outcast-ed and sit somewhere alone by myself
because, one, i don't know how to talk with my aunts, maid/gramps.
and two, my little cousins will be off building sandcastles
and i'm not much of a kid lover
even though i LOVE babies.

three, maybe they'll do some games
which u can win stuff...but i'm not into that either.

lastly, it'll be too noisy & crowded at ECP,
which, i'm not very fond of..

well...guess i'm stuck at home reading New Moon again.
I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH JACOB BLACK.
ehheheeehehe.
Edward step aside, Jacob, HELLO! hahaha

Taylor Lautner playing Jacob Black.
HE is FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

drama.

2009-01-22T02:20:00.002+08:00

an eye for an eye.

what you do, i can do it too.
i can make it hurt, or i can ease the pain.
i can alleviate the pressure, or put stress on it.
if i can pick it up, i can put it down.

if you do something bad, someday there'll be repercussions.
karma is a bitch, you would know.
if i can let it go, you can too.

so long, to all this drama,
to a future free and easy,
not a care in the world..

luckless is me.
always learning things the hard way.

nostalgic.

2009-01-17T22:12:00.020+08:00

(image heavy)

so i went through some of the saved mail today
since i had nothing to do...
guess what i found.
a bunch of hideous pictures of me.

lets cut to the chase now, shall we?

these are the people i've missed for awhile.
i miss the unity, and all the laughs.
i miss going to school everyday looking forward to seeing them.
i love their company and i miss it.
studying with them during all those years have been enjoyable.
i am thankful i have these things to look back on when i
feel that life right now for me is overwhelming.

so guys, please forgive me if you hated the way you look back then
i feel the same too. =)

credits to eca, zilah, efa, sakinah.

done.

rdejnejknwlmclkj

2009-01-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

ITS LIKE YOU DON'T TRUST ME ENOUGH TO SHARE YOUR FEELINGS
AND WHAT'S REALLY BOTHERING YOUR MIND RIGHT NOW.

WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT.

I AM RIGHT HERE.

sleepy...

2009-01-15T15:26:00.002+08:00

the hot weather is making me soo sleepy...
i woke up 4 hours ago...
only to sleep again 2 hours later...
and now i'm up.

my neck hurt
my back hurt
my eyes are soo tired.
i must be PMS-ing.

such a pain to be a girl.

introducing.

2009-01-14T01:27:00.003+08:00

this is my Main Man.....

Saw Tze Juen =)

..
....
.......
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but say hello to my supporting man LUKE!

oops. guess he's not ready to say HELLO yet!
isn't he adorable! HAHA.

i'm sad..

2009-01-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

i just got back from the movies with Baby...
knowing how fragile he was from being sick, he still wanted to meet me..
asked him to cab down to my place...
the boy surprised me by showing up at the door half an hour after he called.
i was sweaty from all the cleaning!

i let him sleep for awhile and cooked some porridge for him to eat.
i shouldn't have asked to eat the whole bowl.
how stupid of me.
i mean, i thought because he was sick and all he should eat more.
i was wrong.
one and a half hour later he felt like vomitting.
in the theatre.
he told me this after the movie ended. =.=
...........................baby baby.

But i should've known better.
when he coughed out his phlegm..
there was blood and some...say brown-like tissue
or was it blood clot that came out together with it...
i was MORTIFIED.
that was it.
i told him to stop smoking altogether...

went to the Inner Painting booth again to see
if i could change the last character of his keychain..
the girl said No...can't change...
so i was insisting on making another one for him..
he said don't waste money..
but being the stubborn head that i am..
i hesitated..and stood around thinking what to do.

then finally the girl said, can change.
finally....so she changed...
and then i could see Baby smiling again.
for the first time today.
felt like when he was looking at me he's not really looking at me.
must be the medicine making him sleepy..

going to Tagore Lane tomorrow for my interview..
meeting Baby afterwards.
i hope, really hope he gets well soon.

i miss him being so hyper around me.
=( =( baby, get well soon..

pass

2009-01-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

the sky is sooo blue tonight.
like baby purple. (i know there isn't such color)
but can't you imagine???????

it looks abit whitish, blueish purple.
perfect for star-gazing!

i suddenly had a spontaneous desire to
go on a shopping spree,
but one look at my wallet
you'll know that i can't.

=(

Baby dear is very sick, hence my day
is filled with boredom,
and i'm worried sick for him,
but luckily his parents brought him to the clinic,
i can rest my mind now..

then i decided to take care of myself.
i spent ONE hour in the bathroom showering.
and then spent another half an hour moisturizing
(this i never got to do whenever i go out)
and then cleared off my nail polish
and then spent another ten minutes clipping what's
left of my toenails..
washed my face like 10 times,
put on moisturizer for the 2nd time,
all while watching Saving My Hubby on Youtube.
okay, except the shower part.
HAHAHA.

at night went to WM with Sis & Mum to buy stuff.
Spent money on keychains, both for Baby & me.
I chose the Rice Calligraphy for mine
and Inner Painting for Baby's.

How can they be so good at inner painting!
I wanted to find out more but I'll look so dumb asking that.
Plus the person doesn't speak English.
I had to say "Ke yi xie Su Zi Jun gei wo kan ma?"
"Ke yi...*scribble scribble* Zhe yang ke yi ma?"
"Bu dui leh. *i wanted to say the Jun was wrong, its another character one but i didn't know to translate it into chinese!*
So she wrote it wrongly.
I just paid for it and went home.
I think I'll do another one tomorrow..
SO LOSER can????
grr.

and then mine was the Rice Calligraphy,
I was attracted to the crystals hanging from the string.
Lol.
I chose the pink diamond crystal with Black strap.
Again, this guy er, I mean, Man, didn't know English.
So I said...awkwardly.

"Er....duo..shao qian?"
"Shi kuai qian er yi"
"Okay, wo yao zhe ge zhe ge zhe ge."
(HAHAHA)
"Ke yi!"

After he's done with the keychain...

"Xie xie ni...*mumble mumble*"
"HA ??"
"Ni de yan jing hen meii..."
"Er...Xie xie ni lao ban, byebye!"
I literally waved at him! LOL
another loser act! HAHA

what a night!
And I bought my hair care products and headed home.
Couldn't finish the Fortune Feast we bought back home.
I stopped after my 2nd chicken.
my stomach is getting weirder and weirder each day.

TOMORROW IS MY SISTER'S O LEVEL RESULTS!
AS WELL AS MICHELLE'S SISTER MAUREEN'S RESULTS!

ALL THE BEST GUYS!!!

p.s: GET WELL SOON BABY I LOVE YOU!! MUAH! <3

i mean.................

2009-01-10T19:29:00.003+08:00

Holey moley.
I CANNOT believe I let my eyes watch this.
SERIOUSLY, STEVEN LIM?

Uh, Jay Chou-wannabe .......HELLOOO ?

He have GOT to take up some piano lessons..

I'm gonna go throw up now.

do you have a knack to...

2009-01-10T01:24:00.003+08:00

follow the HOTTEST trends in Fashion?
(even though it doesn't look good on you)

Me & Mandy were discussing this the other day.
Well, actually awhile ago last year...

I am SICK of looking at people running to the stores and
hogging up the online shops asking "...is there a back order for this?"
"Bla Bla... when can I get this as soon as possible?"

Supposedly last season's trend were animal prints on clothes, shoes, accessories and bags.
Cheetah, zebra, leopard prints, you name it...

I'm not one to follow trends because it fades,
but i can't help but think how shallow that the world of fashion revolves
around the hottest blabla's that makes consumers go crazy.

Shouldn't fashion inspire?

Everywhere I turn now, it's either this shoe has a leopard print canvas
or that bag has a cheetah print bag charm or that dress has a zebra pattern printed all over it.

And let me tell you this season's hottest trend.

Ta Da!

Houndstooth.

*yawn*
I only have TWO houndstooth headbands both in different color,
and these girls fill up the FOX and VEEKO/WANKO store (oh look, haha I just told you where you could get your fix, oops, I mean clothes at) to get those
bigass coats just because they have houndstooth on it?

Will it KILL you if you don't follow the season's hottest must-have?

Gladiator sandals?
So last year.

Vests?
Still the in-thing, but do you see it outside as often anymore?

Kimono's?
Who the hell invented casual kimono's(unless they're dresses) and made it a must-have for every girl?

Fashion fades, style is eternal.

Fashion fades, style is eternal.

Fashion fades, style is eternal.

Fashion fades, style is eternal.

Fashion fades, style is eternal.

will it hurt you to just be yourself,
to follow your own personal style,
and take comfort in knowing that you
dress trendily as well as comfortably?

you don't wear kimono's when you know its gonna make your thighs look fat, do you?

you don't go all out and wear ALL the latest trends out and act like you're some
YAYA PAPAYA who knows alot of shit, do you?

If your answer is No.......
good for you WA SUPPORT SAMA LU.

If your answer is Yes
then to HELL WITH YOU
and start mixing and matching your clothes to make your own personal style.

HONESTLY if I see one more minah/ahlian/chick wearing
allllll the bloody prints, my eyes will turn red and swollen and probably will shed bloody tears.
You have NO idea what an eyesore it was!

*panting*

I Don't Know by Rosie Henshaw

2009-01-09T00:49:00.001+08:00

Enjoyy.

just when i thought it could get better....

2009-01-03T22:32:00.002+08:00

maybe its just the healing process, who knows?
there got to be bumps before you experience and straight and clean journey....

Nad's been admitted into SGH, for bleeding through the nose and mouth..
I hope she gets better, maybe I'll visit her tomorrow or on Monday..
I've never seen a stronger person, other than Nad.
Sometimes I wonder how she can juggle personal relationships, and working while being sick..
Nad, you have to take care of yourself, and don't overwork ok?

stayed at home the whole day,
initially planned to go to JE Swimming Complex with Baby...
i know he likes the Shiok River at WWW,
and JE's one is somewhat similar but not as exciting than WWW's.
its a rare chance we get to go to WWW,
with all the high admission fee and the very long distance train ride from BB....
so i let the poor Baby stay at home due to his migraine...

so i was a loner today, the laptop became my only source of entertainment.
can say its as close as being a best friend..
it contains all my source of happiness, sadness, and entertainment.
all in one go.
i write essays on it whenever i feel really down,
and after writing it always gives me a feeling of happiness,
because i know it has helped me let go of everything.
i dont have to put up a front..
it just listens, and looks on, and never dies on me.

i've been repeating this song,
612 Xing Qiu from early afternoon till now...

and i just found out how to get rid of the choked feeling
i get whenever i feel upset or mad..

sing.

i'll sing until i feel tired,
even though i was out of tune at certain parts.
(......ha)

i'm off to watch another movie to while away the night.

goodnight.

happy new year's

2009-01-01T19:44:00.003+08:00

so my new year countdown wasn't that happening...
the people at East Coast were very quiet.
the only ruckus heard were the drunken Banglas dancing and singing and screaming "Aaappy Noo Yaaar!" like a million times...

it wasn't a happy one for me,
although i had Baby & his friends with me,
i just wasn't one who will cling on to Baby when he was with his friends.
i prefer to be alone.

ended up ruining everyone's New Years to be exact,
went home sobbing like a baby.
slept straight away after washing up and woke up later feeling horrible than ever.

hope this feeling goes away very soon...
what a nice way to welcome the new year..with tears. not of joy.

it wasn't you and your friends.
it was you and me, the plan.

luckily i had Nad to talk to...
thanks Nad for choosing to talk to me.
Happy 2 Years Anniversary to you & Yunus! =)

Happy New Year to everyone, here's wishing everyone a good start and a good year!

NEW YEARS!

2008-12-30T02:19:00.004+08:00

is in...............................2 days.
and I'll be spending it...outside.

Bring on 2009, i cant wait!

I can't wait to look forward to new things, challenges and of course, SCHOOL.
cant wait to spend my 2 Years Anni with TJ Baby!

i think i'll give those tacky New Year's Resolutions a miss....
cos we know that don't work.

right now im so sleepy and tired but for no reason im still staying up.

just got back from celebrating our 20th month together!
ME & BABY! YES! SO happy!

:))):):)):)))))))

details later but right now i'm going to listen to more F.I.R songs and watch some more vids!

ta!

very tired.

2008-12-27T06:51:00.003+08:00

i hate fighting.

so, being the weakling that i was, i didn't keep everything to myself.
i ranted. i got angry again and again.
so fast i wanted to find a solution, so everybody will be happy.

what do i get in the end?
everybody cutting me off and leaving me as i was about to fucking talk?

am i supposed to ignore this bloody part or give in?
because the latter doesn't work.
then what choice do i have?

why is everyone pushing things? why can't everyone just work together?
why can't there be a proper communication between us?
why does everything need to be so complicated?
can't we agree on one thing?

dont be offended or take what i just said to heart.
because we need to fucking grow up.
we've experienced this before, and we got through that in MONTHS.
as we grow old, we get busier.

we need to understand each other.
there is always a next time when everybody is free.

you need to know, we are not going anywhere,
no matter how busy our lives may be.

MERRY XMAS!

2008-12-25T00:43:00.007+08:00

and i got my christmas wish.

even though the day ended really bad.
i was glad i spent it with you.

BUT! amongst other things. 2 days ago(22 Dec '08) was
JIE LUN'S LEGAL 18th!
LIKE FINALLY!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRL!

Nad & Birthday Girl!

Now she can legally drink.......
no more sneaky sneaky.
ahya this girl.

Still thinking when we're meeting, the 4 of us.
It was supposed to be Saturday, NYNY!
BUT NAD!
NAD!
NADDDDDD!

.
.
.
.
I MISS THIS CRAZYY ASS HERE.....
M.I.A again!!!!!!!

And i'll be busy from this week till the week after New Year's.

i had a dream....a very nonsensical dream.
a very stupid, stUUpid pointless dream.
i woke up and i was like WHY DID I JUST DREAM ABOUT THAT!

but it was all good.
it was just a dream.

and Baby & I had some kind of telepathy going on!
we were talking and then suddenly i sang this song
"it was an honest mistake.....an honest mistake...."
randomly!

and then he said..
"Baby..how come you can think of that song...cos i was just thinking about it in my head..and you sang it out.."

hahahah imagine my shock at that.
an honest mistake..(the irony) or just great minds think alike??
but i just said
"you have just found your soulmate baby"
hahaha ok not funny.

when are we meeting again guys?

----

anyway today is Xmas Eve...
went to town for my art supplies...
almost burnt a hole in my pocket...

it was packed with people...
and then outside the Taka walkway they had to seal the place..
too much people..
lol me and Baby was walking through it to get out of the place...
the security people were oblivious of our presence.
weird.

took a bus home..hoping to catch the last movie nite screening "Fred Claus"
was bummed because it was raining heavily!
no one turned up.
saw Sharon! 2nd time bumping into her :)
Sharon has long hair now... she looks so pretty!

next celebration..New Year's!

till then.............

To you....

why i've been busy this week.

2008-12-23T15:14:00.000+08:00

i think i found my calling.

been busy with this portfolio workshop thing.
my first friend was Eugene.
first hand i shook at the beginning of the workshop.
sorry my hand was cold dude. LOL

we were taught the basics of drawing and all
yes yes, i know i learnt this all in sec 1 and 2,
but i FORGOT, because i was in a Science class.
which, obviously i flunked.
i aced my languages, and didn't touch at anything artsy.

i never felt weird at this workshop..throughout the whole week.
i felt like i belonged, and the friendship part just came naturally.

the batch i was with was an international one.
Bi Joo was from idk, Korea? cos of her name...(duh)
and Manasi (pronounced Mahn-see) was from India..the Bollywood part.
(i think Sis would love to be friends with her)

Eugene was from Canada..
Peter was from Taiwan..
and me, Peiyi, Tiqa & Jing Min are Singaporeans(boring)...............

our instructors Urich & Rossalyn are really nice..

some of the assignments, not all cos i was lazy to take all of the pictures
are below..

a chair,

perspective drawing of a corridor,

and collage..

and i kind of miss the smell of our classroom.
the empty, woody smell.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
can i come back?

how messy.
but veryyy conducive.

the wall on the right of the sink says

HOW ARE YOU,
GENTLEMEN?
ALL
YOUR
BASE
ARE
BELONG
TO US!

how cute is that hahaha.

anyway, pictures.

everyone's final projects...
simply called,

"Cityscape"

that's all folks!

out of boredom

2008-12-21T17:05:00.002+08:00

tell me what do you see.

.
.
.
.

an owl, a trench coat, or dress?

got out of bed and switched on the computer to start my inspiration process.
gotta get my gear working.
still had a few pieces of charcoal left so i went crazy with it.

i have one week.

holy shiznuts.

HOT!

2008-12-05T19:58:00.002+08:00

Britney Spears - Circus (Director's Cut)
by trentisthenewpink

fow,christmas trees, and a whole lot of water.

2008-12-04T01:13:00.003+08:00

a collage of our anniversary date,

pre-anniversary
& post-anniversary.

heheh =)

i CAN'T wait for christmas!
lights everywhere!
and it was very windy and cold
but all i can feel is warmth!

Xmas & NYE should be fun!

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~

Britney Jean Spears

2008-12-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITNEY!

I find this video hilarious!
To think she has a good sense of humor!

Britney Spears - MTV Shows

I AM GOING TO GET CIRCUS SOON!!!! AHHH CAN'T WAIT!!!!

HAPPY 19 MONTHS BABY!

2008-11-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

hello!

HAHA!

I'M A HAPPY GIRL TODAY! KNOW WHY?!?!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
COS, ITS!

ME AND BABY'S 19TH MONTH TOGETHER!

happy birthday to us!
HEHEHE!

I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BABY!

thank you for everything you have done for me honey.
i'll always remember. =)

<3<3<3

I. LOVE. YOU !

some of the things i want...

2008-11-26T02:20:00.005+08:00

for Xmas.

Lovely!
A perfect end to a very "chill" year.
Plus a romantic dinner, the boy of my dreams & a mistletoe kiss.

Ha HA hee HEE ha HA ho!

//edited..//

i am still bored.

1. Do you have secrets?
- if you want me to keep them then yes.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
- ew much. much ew ew ew much la.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
-as long as i'm not the one at the losing end. bcuz some people dont come back. and im a tad too impatient.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- buy myself a big house, do a major makeover, pay for all my education fees, and the rest for travelling! wahhaaha. big dreams.

5. What will you be doing tomorrow?
- watching Quarantine with Baby!

6. Which is more blessed, loving somone or being loved by somone?
- both is a blessing and a joy. it takes alot.

7. What do you love doing?
-so many things.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- diminish that feeling. its not right.

9. Is there anything that make you extremely happy?
- forever will be my babyboy.

10. Do you secretly dislike anyone without them knowing?
-when i was young and innocent. and a coward.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- married, with 2 kids, living in America. lol.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
-Baby. who mah. one person only. who won't blackmail, hurt, display un-loyalty(there isnt a word but u get what i mean) and knows me very well.

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
-the one who holds the key to my soul & my heart. without him i will be down & out.
seriously. stfu whoever thinks i'm naive. im not. k. shut up. :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
-latter.

15. What is your favourite colour?
-gold

16. If you're attached but you feel as if you like someone else, what would you do?
-follow what my heart tells me.

17. Would you forgive & forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
-i'm a put-the-past-behind-you kind of person. hold no grudges. but its not the same with r/s with guys. i, will, seek revenge. >=(

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
-i'll tell him myself eeeheehee

19. What if you caught your bf/gf doing stuffs (only god knows what) with other girls/guys?
-i'll be very upset, betrayed, heartbroken, disgraced, embarrassed, sad but i wont be too lenient.
he WILL regret.

sweet revenge what can i say, wahaha! :D

20. Do you believe that there's "Love At First Sight"?
- mmmmmmmmmm hmmm

TAGGING THESE FEW PEOPLE YEAH:

MICHELLE

MANDA

SHARON

SHERYL

SYAZRELLA

RIDHWAN

YAYA

EIKA

DAPHNE

and whoever who is bored.......

bonkier.

2008-11-23T04:12:00.003+08:00

ok.

i know the title sounds weird but im really feeling very crazy today.
firstly.

i had a bad tummyache in the morning
slept for another 4 hours before running to the toilet again.
and guess what aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh
I LOST WEIGHT.

hahahaha!
i feel like Mandy now. only crazier.
speaking of Mandy.
i miss her.
and i miss my besties.
when's the next sleepover girls?

NAD!
you havent told me about your trip!
and MIC!
we have Lun's bday celebration to plan!

and Baby has started working
so I have to entertain myself
so i've been either watching videos of old dramas.
or playing pet society.

here's my pet and Baby's pet.

look at them! matching clothes. hahahahahhaa

i was roaring mad today.
i was hysterical all day.
even the littlest things make me laugh so hard.

more sundaes. oops. sundays.

2008-11-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

if only i can feel as relaxed as i was on sunday.
i wanna feel the wind in my hair.
even though it will mess it all up. like in the pic
(you're LOL-ing right now aren't you!)
i look tired. but i'm enjoying myself.
why can't everyday be like this!

i wanna go back.

breaks my heart.

2008-11-17T03:32:00.003+08:00

For Qeena - r.i.p

i was just browsing around because i haven't been able to sleep
since i hung up after saying goodnight to Baby...
these few days i have always been carrying a heavy heart or just feeling uneasy.

which is ridiculous.

after that thing is settled, i have nothing to worry about
but still insomnia bugs the hell out of me.
and when this quiet time of the day where people are actually supposed
to be sleeping comes, my head will be full of thoughts and nonsense
that i am not supposed to think.

when i decided to clear my mind..
i was just browsing through a couple blogs.
i stumbled upon this blog.

its enough to jolt me out of my senses.

it scared me.
my mind cleared up.
my heart beats so fast it hurts.
the shock that comes from reading all those tags.
i was determined to find out what happened..
to the sweet-looking innocent girl.

i read her last entry.
my eyes couldn't stop moving on from the first word to another..
and yet another sentence.
and another entry.

it makes me really sad.
she left, just like that.

she left behind those who loves her.
friends.
family.
love.

in a quick second, you never know.
one moment she'll be talking to you happily on the phone..
and the next you hear that she's gone.

and in this case, she didn't know when she would leave.
rather happily she would live...
knowing that the next day she'll have a good time
with her loved ones.

and to her, i send my prayers.
may she rest in peace...

petsocietypetsocietypetsociety

2008-11-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

i've been playing pet society from morning till night.
i fell asleep while messaging baby.

this is Baby's pet schmits visiting my pet bunneybee.
hehe!
so cute.

i'm not okay.

2008-11-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

just tell me, one reason why.

the lump in my throat.
my thumping heart.
my shivering hands.

my mind in a whirl.
do you know?

my heart's a mess.

so badly i wanted to cry.
but i can't.

i swallowed every bit of my dignity.
the pain i felt.

everything..
into nothing.

can i continue further?

will i be able to hold on till the very end?

so badly i wanted to cry.
you're becoming a blur.

can i stand tall without you.
will i fall if i lose you..

i'm forcing myself not to cry.
not to shed a single tear.

you're getting further
and further away from me.

badly i wanted to see you smile,
and treat me the same.
as if nothing's happened.

so badly i've been exclusive.
cos my heart only has you.

i can't hold back any longer.

where did you go.
you're fading away.

all is okay now, things have changed for the better.
i hope.

what a week.

2008-11-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

so I've been doing nothing but stay home during the weekend.

been dating my room for 48 hours and i am slowly starting to suffocate.
the last time i breathed in fresh air was at 11 am Saturday morning.

okay, exaggerating . hahaha.
so the most ridiculous thing i did this weekend was -
CUT MY HAIR.

decided on friday evening that my hair is too thick
and too boring.
i am sick of it.
thats why you always see me changing hairstyles.

but i'm determined not to fall into the exact same crisis
as i did before in secondary school.
i was always trying to find ways to make my hair suit my face shape.

and i've always wondered how will i look if i had BIGGER hair
a la Xiao Hua in Miss No Good.
...but not too curly and coarse as hers.
because it was a wig. =.=

i am waiting forever to wait for my hair to grow longer.
very long.

extensions?
too expensive.
i might end up losing alot of hair.
and i don't have alot of it to begin with.
0.O'''

if only i have my own personal hairstylist.
but i'm not rich.
so scratch that dream.
sighhh.

but luckily the haircut didn't turn out disastrous because
i had a nice hairdresser who kept asking me
questions on how i want my hair to be.

most hairdressers just yank and pull on your hair
while drying it and cutting it all the wrong way.

i had my fair share of annoying hairdressers, thank you very much.

so grateful that it turned out okay.

been wasting alot of my time on the internet
watching shows after shows.

2 shows, 29 episodes.

i..a.m..v.e.r.y..b.o.r.e.d.

=(

will someone please take me out already!

BABY WHERE ARE YOU!

HAPPY 18th, Michelle Kong Xuan :)

2008-11-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday

to my bestie,

MICHELLE KONG XUAN!

let's see who the lucky girl is shall we ?

deng deng deng!

eh wrong picture.

nope, not this one........

this is her :)

and on this special day, all four of us were once again, together.
ever since my birthday(that was 3 months ago) we were together, eating pizza and cakes
and laughing out loud and making jokes while watching TV.

Nad's boisterous, loud laughter.
Mic's happy radiant face
(hey shawty, itss ya birthday..)
and Lun's sudden laughter and mockings.
And I felt complete even though I was so tired and sleepy
running around making sure we had everything for her birthday.
It was worth it, seeing her smile.

I felt that warmth again around these 3 girls.
I looked around and saw that nothing has changed,
only our lives.
our friendship never changed, nor our characters and how we treat each other.

I'm glad to have been there with them during Mic's special 18th.

~~~~~~~~~~~

so we were at Mic's till midnight..
she's officially 18 and a day older now :)
we took pictures before we left..
and i'm still waiting for the others to be uploaded..
(Nad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Happy Birthday Michelle!

JLNMN:

To Friendship
Till We Grow White Hair
And Have Grandchildren
Scattered All Over The Place.

;)

hehe.

Happy 1 & a half years Baby!

2008-10-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

I know this is the cheesiest photo but its also real.
Like what we have.

Happy Anniversary Baby!

I'll always love you!

--------------

---- the 29th ----

So Baby came around morning to watch me sleep. =)
hehe. He brought me Minestrone Soup
which he cooked himself; my breakfast that morning.
It was...YUM! Right Sis?
Haha she happened to be walking in right that moment when I was
about to enjoy it..HMMM.
Watched High School Musical 3: Senior Year
that afternoon.
Baby, thank you for watching this cheesy movie with me
on our day. =)

We happen to like the same song in the movie.
And the same scene.
Wen Troy & Gabriella danced the waltz
during "Can I Have This Dance?"

& a part of this song dedicated to my Mr STJ.

It's like catching lightning
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better

No mountains to high enough
No oceans to wide
Cuz together or not,
Our dance wont stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

a rose and a very sweet waffle to end the perfect evening.
thank you for a lovely day Baby.
*xxxx

p.s: it's great to have supporting friends around us.
glad to know we have them. =)

i am so MAD.

2008-10-27T03:39:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel sooo irritated when people jump to conclusions instead of calmly asking what's the situation?

example.

A daughter is surfing online.
Her mother wakes up and said..

"What the hell are you doing looking at that woman's face when you're supposed to pray?"

The daughter looks at her, annoyed.
Couldn't think of what to say first.

BECAUSE.

FIRST,

SHE'S READING HER BEST FRIEND'S ONLINE DIARY,
NOT LOOKING AT SOME PORN SITE.

AND
SECOND,

HOW CAN SHE PRAY WHEN SHE'S HAVING HER BLOODY PERIOD ?!

&
&
&

HOW CAN A FATHER BLOW UP AT HIS DAUGHTER FOR SHOWING HER AFFECTION TOWARDS HIM?

&
&

how can they dismiss our thoughts and feelings so easily and ask us to "PRAY" instead to relieve those thoughts and feelings?

BECAUSE, THIS, MY DEAR PARENTS,

DOESN'T.

WORK.

FOR.

US.

TEENAGERS.

because. we. simply. don't. understand.

all. we. want. is. logic.

not. some. ancient. belief. that. we. are. supposed. to. believe. in. by. BIRTH.

HONESTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK
SOMEBODY
.
UP!!!!!!

crampyyy...mooodyyyy

2008-10-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

i spent my lovely saturday afternoon lying on the bed

cringing and curling up due to cramps.
>:(

but thank god my *Aunty decided to pay me a visit today
instead of tomorrow!
Because TOMORROW I'LL BE MEETING BABY!!
NAAAAAAAAA NAAAAAAAAA!

HEHEEHEHE

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.
.
.
.
.
.

BABY LOVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

where's paris!

2008-10-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

SPICE GIRLS by STEVIE RYAN!

So I've been waitinngggg and waitinngggg for
Paris Hilton: My New BFF
new episode to come out
and its taking sooo bloody long to be uploaded!!!!
COME ON MTV!!!!!!!

Guess I'll have to wait until tomorrow then.....
....................
................................
..................................................
.......................................................
its taking so bloody long.

while waiting i found some new videos
to amuse myself.
d'oh. MTV come onnnnnn dooo your jobbb!!!
lol.

check it out~

This one's a Harry Potter Rap.
I LOVE THE ENDING
tho not so much bout the rap part
although its a little funny.

This got me smiling and I'm verryyy entertained.

Here comes the good part.

SCENE KIDS y'all need to watch this.
By my fav youtuber Stevie Ryan.

Ohh lordy. Here comes Chrissy.
It's Chris Crocker.
It's Chrissy, Bitch. LOL.

Stevie Ryan as Little Loca.

Stevie Ryan as Paris Hilton

Stevie Ryan:
BESTEST IMPRESSION OF AMY WINEHOUSE, EVERRR!!

Stevie Ryan: FUNNIEST, THE!LOL.

Want more of Stevie Ryan go check out her Youtube profile.

And nowwww I'm going to go watch 100% Senorita AGAIN!
I'm very bored, see.

show your support!

2008-10-22T16:16:00.000+08:00

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No pictures.

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and if you love your dresses to be unique. =)

I bought my birthday dress from there.

It's a glittery black piece from the first collection,

Dita Dress

(And the people at GD are very kind to mail

it days before my birthday!)

The people at GD are very friendly

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Very efficient no?

They just came up with their 4th collection

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finally.

2008-10-21T19:49:00.001+08:00

to find closure, deal with what you've been running away from.

wild wild, REALLY wet.

2008-10-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

*imitates British accent*
You alone, my dear ?

Okayy so as promised.

Photos and deets about WWW.

I was REALLY excited to meet Baby,
so we met for breakfast first.
Had these kaya balls and waffle stick.
YUMMY!
From Yummy Station...
so it was a good start.
full belly, raging excitement~

and of course, the weather was on our side today...
not for long...

we arrived and ran all the way to the Shiok River.
the ground was BURNING hot.
our feet ached walking on that stone pathway.
so we had to run and jump and run and jump..
you know.
because it was HOT!

luckily i have my sunscreen!
this missy here very kiasu to lather on
generous amount of sunblock
so that she doesn't turn out soo tanned out of the water.
heehee :)
honestly, i can turn soo dark after 4 hours in the water.
don't believe me?
Ask the Babyboy himself :)

okay so not much pictures today because,
it rained really really heavily halfway and we got out of WWW
only 2 or 3 hours after we got in so...
pretty bummed.

Baby bumped his toes on the floor while we were wave-cruising
at the Waves pool.
So I think it got him pretty bad, his feet were swollen
by the time we got out of there.

So, feeling bad for dragging him all the way there I decided
that it was time we both head for the showers and
go get some dinner.

My favourite WWW moment was when we were going down that BIG slide.
with a French family!

Actually only a father and his two small hunks, I mean....sons.
They were really small, prolly 5 years old, and already looking like surfers.

When we were going down that big slide it was ultra excitement!
The 3 of them were raising their arms and talking in French SO funnily(is there even such word?)
So anyway Baby and I had a really good laugh and I mean we're in stitches by the time we reached the bottom.

I'm guessing the Dad was saying
"Ohmygoditssofreakingfastcomeonladsletsraiseourhandsupcositsmorefunlikethis!"

Only in French...

Get what I'm saying?
Oui ?

Wahaha. I should stop now.

There weren't much pictures, because, what is there to take anyway?
Aside from of course...
this pretty merry-go-round...

and this "castle".
That's about it.

And the reason for the blur pictures,

I didn't set the scene right.
It was bloody "Candle" scene all the way.
And my hands were pretty shaky.

And I can't take pictures with my hair all dried up from all the chlorine, can I ?
Right, girls?

Don't we look like we're in freaking Taiwan or Japan or something!

This Zebra reminds me of my birthday outfit!
I can see Mandy rolling her eyes and saying
*DUH* really loudly in my face right now.
LOL.

We got these watches at a pretty reasonable price !
We wanted matchy matchy ones, hence.
I prefer the silver studded one actually.
But anything for Baby! :)

That was my weekend!

=)

yawn

2008-10-19T00:47:00.000+08:00

So today was a pretty laid back day..
Aside from all the chores that I need to do...........

I'm psyched about tomorrow's swimming outing with
Baby!

I finally get to use those free tickets to WWW.
On the other hand tho, I haven't visited Escape Theme Park for quite awhile now.
Been so long. VERY long.
As much as I wanna try the rides... but I like swimming more ;)
So WWW it is!

Gonna have an early morning tomorrow..
Will update tomorrow with pictures!

love~

lalala!

2008-10-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

Girl, I hope you know what you're doing and be sure you won't regret it.

And Boy, no use fighting over something not worth your time. You're better than that.

-----------------------------------

alrriiiight who wants to bake me some nice soft chocolate cookies?

hhaha.
my sweet tooth craze is coming back.

anyway...
today me & Baby went to Naddie's house to play with GelojohJOJO!
Hahaha. she was a smalll tiny little thing!

i can hold her up with my one hand,
so you know how little she is.

pictures!

this one with Naddie.
i was all
"so cute! So cute!! Sooo cuuuuuute!!!"
ALL the way!

she walks and runs and plays around with people.
and i think she likes Baby.

They both had a private moment for awhile.
She sits there and stared across the table at Baby
while he did the same thing.

so cute right!
she bites and paws but i'm not scared because her bites are like pinches!
she's teething.
sooo cute!
Mic & Lun came over too
and Lun was all
"hellooo girl. soo cute! look she falling down, so cute!"
while Mic just stays away from the kitty and watches from a distance.
MIC! Cute right you! hehe ;)

and then everyone was tired and we went home pretty early
to let Nad rest.

seeing my best friends today was very liberating and made me happy for awhile
even though we didn't get to spend much time together.
=)

what a fun day!

look at my sleepy Baby.

don't they both look alike?

asleep in my arms.

angel.

she grinds her teeth whilst asleep.

sleeping beauty.

goodnight everybodyy.

what do you want from me?

2008-10-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

listen up dude.

i know our squabble dated as far as 4 years back.
but can you just forget about it already?

if you knew it was uncomfortable for me to have you know
each time i change my number, then why did you still leave me messages
and ask for forgiveness?
because as far as i know, i don't even remember what wrong you did to me no more.

don't you know i want to be left alone ?

you're scaring me.
what is up with the
"i need to talk to you now, later than that, i'll be long gone"

what, you think i give a fuck?

please stop bugging me.

i forgot what we fought about, because its SO LONG AGO.
give it a rest.

i am trying to move on.
and you need to do so, for yourself.
its been 4 fucking long years.

and you know the scariest part is..

how did you know i named you stalker in my phone?
huh? you can't blame me for that.
i wanna know, how did you manage to know that ?

please stop your futile attempts in getting me to talk to you.
because i won't be wasting my time.

just give up.

now.

haaaaaa.

2008-10-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

so mum bought a new oven which i had to carry from the mall all the way home.

and i'm really starting to reap the benefits.

i've been having sores on my neck and shoulders for 3 days
and sleeping it off sure doesn't help.

and i've been pissy lately, what is wrong with me?

and Eika is having her O levels tomorrow.
i'm really starting to get jumpy about her performance.
she's a nervous wreck when it comes to big exams.
wonder how she'll do.

and here i am sitting at 2 AM in the mornin in front of the computer
when i'm supposed to be sleeping.

kind of excited to see Nad & Jojo and the rest of her family tomorrow.
haven't seen Nad since...
my birthday party?

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING THEIR O'S TMR!

ok so should i just sleep, or..

i should just sleep.

excited!

2008-10-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

NEW LAYOUT!

so i bought some new heels and camisoles...

which, makes a girl like me super SUPER happy!

and i'm excited about the outing tmr.
with baby.
we're gonna go raya.
only the both of us.

for a moment i couldn't find my kebaya.
it was OOS.
OUT OF SIGHT!

i started panicking.
and when i panick.
my face gets really cramped.
and my eyebrows will be like this...

my nose will be thinner than usual.
people tend to scrunch up their noses when they're pissed.
I, on the other hand, sucks in(hmmm) my nose until it looks really thin
i don't even know how i did that.
must've been very upset.

and my cheeks gets soo tight you can see they're like fishballs.
and my mouth, well its pursed so tightly.

and when i have that cramped face for too long, my face will either ache,
or i'll burst into tears.

i was soooo upset i couldn't find it.
I even thought somebody stole it.
i started looking for it in every inch of the house.
started blaming everyone for moving it somewhere.

and my mum, being the ratty-tat-tatt
even whispered(hello, i can hear you, ok!)
to my sister that
i have nothing to wear when im going out the next day.
and that does it!

it pissed me off soo bad
i said SHUT UP! and burst into tears.

and then.
everyone started helping me look for it
while i sit there and cry
over my beloved clothing.
it mattered so much because its the first kebaya i bought with Baby, OK!
hmph.

and then i looked for it in the store room.
and i dug into a pile of clothing.
and lo and behold,
there it was, with its gleaming beads & shiny ribbons,
were my kebaya, folded nicely in a red paper bag.

*********PAUSE***********

all together now,

-______________________-

how wide can you go. lol.

so drama this little mama, ain't she ?
hahaha.

will update more soon.
so byebye.

hmm..

2008-10-15T01:53:00.000+08:00

hello readersss.
nothin much have been going on in my life except.......
well, nothing .

life everyday for me has been a routine.
y'all know what's that like right...

but i think life now for me is like pretty laid back.
many people would kill to be in my place.
others will just shake their heads and think that i'm wasting my time.
there you go..
two sides of looking at it..

but i prefer to think that something is waiting for me.
and i'm waiting for the right time to see it
and finally acknowledge it.

some things are just worth the wait and all the time that's wasted..
you gotta make a few wrong turns to finally realize what you want.
and while you're "wasting" your time..
you have the time to actually think.
weigh the good and bad..
and all that other stuff..

figure out what you want.
set your mind to do it.
and you do it.

i miss that warm feeling i get when i achieve or accomplish something.

and today...
i finally get that warm feeling.
but its not because i've achieved or did something great.

it just came from inside out of the blue.
unexpectedly.

it just makes you feel so happy inside and so very comfortable.
i let myself simmer in that feeling for a few moments.
when is it coming back again,
that, i don't know.

WOMANIZER!

2008-10-11T22:09:00.001+08:00

OHMYGODDDD is this video HOT ~~or what~~!!!
*fans self*

Britney's back everybody!

From girlfriend

To Office Secretary

To Tattoo-clad waitress!

and another one of a hot chauffeur.....................................

ahhhhhhh!
and this song & video really sums up all the anticipation and excitement of how the song really sound like and OMG don't you agree that Britney's getting hotter the more she gets better and healthier!

LOVE the wink she gave in the first few seconds of the video!

GO BRITNEY!

Her sites finally up!

B ritneySpears.Com

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...not really but soon!

and the song's all up in my head right now!!!!!

don't give up.

2008-10-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

The heart is stronger than you think
Like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometime you want to run away
Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into your heart, the beat goes on

I’m telling you
Things get better through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go, be your own miracle, you need to know

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what, don’t give up
Through it all, just stand up

It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don’t mean it gotta take control, no

You got it in you, find it within.

P.S: A, trust me, you can and will pull through, i know you
can. Don't give up.

hari raya `08

2008-10-07T02:26:00.000+08:00

so guess what.
i'm all drugged up and sleepy because of the panadol i took earlier tonight. [who cares! haha]
stupid doctor.
if i'm gonna have headaches this often and pop one of your pills in class i'll be a total slacker slash nutcase.

anyways.

selamat hari raya!
collection on the first day wasn't bad.. :)
there were more visitors this year than the last.
hence.....

sooo this year there aren't much pics but there are a few.
and we got to celebrate raya with my baby bunnies, which already turn 1 years old on 26th September, BOTH of them!

Lily go to Daddy, Rosey stay with Mommy!

Rosey & Lily

and my baby bunnies have come a long way since 26th September 2007.
they're as big as my thighs now. LOL.

EID 2007

At Ibu's place.

at Anya's place.

okay this pics were taken last year..
when i was fat and my hair is all curly. straight. curly straight?

EID 2008

finally. a family picture WITH my Dad.

i was too sleepy to smile.
and me & my sister always have matching clothes on HR.
time for a change..hmmm.

and the newest addition to our family,
Baby Inas Dzarifa..
who arrived wednesday noon on 8th Sep `08.
On my sister's birthday!

baby Nas with Jujuk.

baby Nas with her aunt. ;) heh. makes me sound so old. i'm an auntie now. boo.

and baby Nas with the Bibiks and Jujuk.
don't we look like 3 angels from above? HAHA.

Baby Mairah. she's grown so big.

and this boy here has grown soo big and naughty. my darling Danish Andrian.

its good to see everybody.
i got to see Abg Khairul after 2 years...
and Abg Acad too.
Yaya has grown up so big i thought she was 15 when she's only 13...

its hard to see all my little cousins grow up when it seems only yesterday that I'd play with them, put on their shoes for them and feed them.

it was a Happy Hari Raya.

and let your dreams be turned into nightmares! MUAHA.
goodnight!

my sassy girl.

2008-09-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

so its a tiring Sunday.

woke up to my mum shouting at the top of her lungs.
and the sarcasm which became my breakfast this morning.
"you wouldn't wake up even if anybody died"
"your dead grandfather sends you his wishes"

great. i'm full.

the usual morning ritual.
wake up.
wash up.
pet the bunnies.

and then it was my job the clean out the whole storeroom.
so i was at it, throwing out the rubbish, sorting out the things, throwing out books, sweeping the floor, screaming at the sight of any crawling insects creeping out from the dusty store room.

in about an hour i was done.
everybody was all having a hissy fit today.
mum. dad.
only my sis seems normal.
and baby.

found old photos of myself and my friends.
and the primary school graduation photo album.

i found a photo of me, Sasha & Fizah in the hotel room at Malaysia.
it was taken on a school trip for all the leaders of every CCA in school.
i still remember that day.
we were jumping up and down on the bed in the room.

and me, came unprepared as usual on trips..
had my period that day..
didn't bring along enough pads.. lol.

so i got Sasha to ask the teachers for me.
my saviour. lol.
and me ending up getting embarrassed...

the trip when Fizah left her money on the morning of our departure..
on the canteen table..
and having to borrow one of the teacher's money to spend...

the trip when i made Afifah massage my waist because i had TERRIBLE waist cramps
while we were visiting the rainforest museum(was it? i cant rmb)

good times.

and the money Fizah lost was found after our school trip..
and the discipline master went up to the mic and asked the whole school during assembly
who left the money in the canteen...
She had to stand in front of the whole school..
she had no choice. lol.
GOOD TIMES!

sighh...

and then webcam on MSN with baby.
so sweeeeeeeeeeeeet
hehe. i love you baby.

and today
29th September 2008

is our
1 year & 5 months anniversary!
we're gonna celebrate tomorrow!
lovelovelove you baby MUAH!

we went to Geylang yesterday to look for our baju together.
hehehe.
this year's theme.
Brown!
hehe.

----

heyyy...have you guys watched the Korean version of the movie "My Sassy Girl" ?
did you wonder why the female lead's fiance/boyfriend committed suicide at the beginning of the story?

i didn't watch the korean one when i caught the american version at the cinemas with baby.
so i was very puzzled at first when they showed the guy committed suicide.
it doesn't make any sense at all.

sooo i watched the korean version...
it states that the guy died but not because he committed suicide.
but the american one seems better than the original.

SO!
i found out about the sequel of "My Sassy Girl"....
turns out there was a movie made before MSG was made
which tells the whole story behind the guy dying and why the girl didn't want to date the new guy because she couldn't forget her deceased boyfriend.

it was because the dead guy(lol) had a best friend(i think) and he left something for her with him to give to her after his death.

apparently him and this best friend had a somewhat similar soul...
so the dead guy arranged for him to meet her and gave what he'd left for her...

she chased to catch up with him, and when she did, it was at a train station catching the train...

so this story is called "Windstruck".

its veryyyyy sad.
you can practically sob watching it.
there are some funny parts. :)
but the end was touching.

go watch it!
but first get ready a box of tissues. hehe :)

and after that you can watch
"Please Teach Me English"
for a laugh !

i just love Jeong Ji Hyun! :D:D:D

im going to bed now.
gnite!

zzzZzzZZzzz

2008-09-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

hey lo hello~

so im kinda bored with this blog.
started updating my myspace blog cos, well you know.
i thought the emoticons were nice ~ ;)

nothing much have been happening in my life
except, the usual.
wonder what my friends are doing right now.

anyway i gotta plan an outing with michelle, jielun, nadiah & mandy before they ALL
return to school in Oct.
yuhh :(
without me.

i was kinda pushing forward the registration...
or i think "putting it off" might be the right words. heh =)
my dad was NOT happy.

see, shit this blogger doesn't have any cool emoticons to end my lines with. =.=
so i'm gonna give you all faces using .... the keyboard.
yeah? =D

anyways have you guys read about the milk problem ?
so stop buying those M&Ms already.
Anything dairy, like milk(*DUH*), yoghurt, ice cream, Oreos, M&Ms....
basically all milk products coming from China for that matter.
just in case?

we got babies taking the rap for us in China first...
bless their souls.....

bad mood.

2008-09-23T03:50:00.000+08:00

im being nuts to everyone lately and i have no idea why.
i'm so pissy you'd think im crazy and you'd wanna slap me.

been having late nights lately and i can't bloody help it.

i'm worried about baby not having enough rest.
and i need to run some errands which i was supposed to bloody finish by now.

nyehnyehnyeh

from this side and that.

so bloody sick of measuring up to everyone.
i think i lost myself there.

ohh, and congrats to Mic bestie for winning 3rd prize for her DVDE homework, which was handed in as an entry in a competition.
Prize was $500 and an LCD Monitor.

i envy the winner. he got like 4k plus a bunch of other swag. =S

anyway here's her winning entry. ;)

pretty neat. =)

you're supposed to create this image using a NEC projector or something. to create the image and show the sharpness and its color. the ladybug was created by the projector lens.

so happy for you Mic ;)
didn't think you're capable of such complex things!

and i'm going to sleep now.
gnite.

whereareyounow

2008-09-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

its so hard to keep up with the times when you're sitting home all day all week
and getting out in the open like go to the mall or just to run some errands seems weird,
like here you are, in the future when your state of mind is clearly stuck in the past.
everything's moving forward...

the past is something that i have been thinking about, alot,
and it makes me stressed up and feel the need to get out there.

i've had several breakdowns these few weeks and i've noticed my irritability, temper & sleeping conditions have been out of control.
and its not about the monthly thing, not at all.

people say i need to get out and find a distraction, if possible, a few
that would get my mind off thinking too much and reading too much into some things.
but i know that if i get out there, i wouldnt have time to stop and think like how i would now.
one second i'll have too much time in my hands, and the next i'm too occupied to do anything but breathe.

i've been thinking, all these months, of sitting at home
and trying to answer to every little detail in my life, to what i want to have, to what i'm doing everyday, not going to school, not working either... its all a little too much.

just the constant drilling and expectations just putting alot of pressure on me.
i feel like if i don't do what they expect me to do, then it's either their cold attitudes that i'm going to put up with, or their black faces.

and the only person i'm brave enough to finally let out my tears in front of is the one who's always there everyday.
he's there when i call.

my family is not what a family should act like.
so be thankful you have yours.
i'm in a state i didn't think i'd be in.

i'm thinking where are my friends.
where are they.

LiLo PoP

2008-09-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

LiLo on the cover of POP Magazine! Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Things have been so over-the-top lately and the tension at home is really getting to me.
I think I shouldn't stay home so often but time have been solely for *Baby&Me*.

found myself bumming around at home today
and i just lay on my bed thinking about nothing in particular.
then i remembered that i packed my books and put them away..
leaving some books or certain treasures reminiscent of the past.

so i took them out today and looked through them page by page.
there were some filled with hatred, anger and then there are some
filled with sweet-foolish-teenage-angst words.

flipped through and out fell a series of pictures.
my baby pictures, post-puberty pictures.
perfect teeth-then pictures.
silly pictures.

yeah we all have those kind of pictures, each and every one of us.
for me, they're so few and rare.
it makes me want to picture every moment i have when i can.

the incident on my 18th birthday when the camera start to foul up makes me think that
moments like these are hard to come by.
i want to live every moment i can, and to be able to look back, i need pictures to remember them by.

so, that said, i want my own digi cam!
not my sister's, not my dad's.
my own memory-capturing device. lol.
the thing that freezes each and every moment, no matter how silly, or ugly, or beautiful.

:)
I WANT A DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!!!!!

revamped.

2008-09-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

So I finally rearranged the furniture in my room.
Its gettin kinda wee bit squeezy in my room with the study table, dressing table and the bookshelf.

Was kinda playing around with the furniture, moving it here and there.
Then I was satisfied.
One part of my room is bare.
So I put the bookshelf there.
Got a mini shrine of mine going on.
Haha. Take a look.
Sorry for the bad quality. Pic taken using my phone.
So its gonna be like this every night until I get sick of it and try to find other ways to make it look new. Lol
Did you see the bigass pencil in the picture?
Given to me by Azely&Ivan.
Cute eh? Thanks guys!

-----

well today was kind of a bad day.
i was very emotional, kinda affected the Babyboy a bit cos we had this like cold war session for an hour and then i ended up in tears.
not good.

i'm thinking of starting work soon,
and pushing my enrolment towards next year, February.

meanwhile i'll spend the rest of my year resting, spending time with my girls and Baby.

this year has been so overwhelming...
whereas the previous year was so depressing.

i need time to pull myself together and be ready.

-------

So yesterday was my Sis birthday... 080908.
And yesterday was the arrival of my beautiful baby niece too.
YAY!
So it was like..double joys in a day.
I got to see how the little angel looks like through video call to the hospital.
So chubby, fair and pretty like her mommy!

Couldn't wait to see her on Hari Raya.
and we still don't know bout her name yet so..kinda anticipating for Hari Raya to come so I can see everyone!

and today my cousin went for his National Service.
alot of things going on this month.
so overwhelming.
wonder how he's doing over there.
must be tough.

anyway i'm gonna hit the sack right now.
exhausted!
bye!

growing phase.

2008-09-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

Totally hate how I looked in this picture.

how chubby my cheeks were.
and that amy winehouse eyeliner.
=.= i'm improving.

anyways.

i'm goin to Escape Theme Park tomorrow with Baby...been looking forward to this since my birthday this year.
my last visit there was ... 6 years ago. or maybe 4.
with michelle, nad, maureen and mohd.

good times.

monday looking forward to spend time with Schmanderz.

i've just been burnt out these few days and with things happening. kinda like needed somebody...insane. because everybody around me has been rather sane and plain boring. yeah, so looking forward to spending time with you Schmanderz!

its been awfully hot these few days at night..
and pouring in the late evenings.

my stomach's being really weird lately and has been overworking.

maybe it's not used to 4 AM feedings and not eating and eating late at 7 PM.

fasting is such a drag, i know i'm not supposed to complain but. nyeh.
no more spicy food for moi.

went to Botanic Gardens with Baby last week to spend the afternoon..and feed some fishies but we didn't have change...and it rained so was kinda disappointed.

look at the Babyboy though, he was having fun.

Haha. My Model-In-The-Making.

here's to another boring few months before I start school.

Dad's not gonna be too happy bout this...

nil.

2008-09-04T11:00:00.000+08:00

I was a little stressed today.
last night was a drag, and i ended up with swollen eyes today.
i was really not in the mood.
and i found that writing poems is a good way to relieve my stress and pent up feelings.

well today i finally got to set foot at kampong glam again.
this time it was with baby and friends.
some left halfway so. yeah.

i was by then, soo tired of all the walking.
and now i'm at a gaming centre writing this entry.

i'm thinking of publishing my poems on my blog.
but i don't know if its a good idea.

a part of me felt like it would give the readers a sense of who i really am.
or how i feel. but a huge part of me thinks otherwise - that it might just show how weak i was as a person.

one thing that's been really bugging me the whole while was - Friends.
i never knew how important to keep them in my life.
and how their words could actually hurt..or make my day.
and now it just hurts.

a friend told me once, "You don't need a lot of friends to be whole. You just need a few good friends to hold on to when you're screwed over."
i don't need to think hard who those few good friends really were.
that was clear.

you had me thinking...
did i really make you that mad to make you say those things to me?

not once i lashed out about anybody for making me mad.
unless you betrayed my trust. but thats a different story.

12 Lotus

2008-09-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

12 LOTUS tells a story of a talented singer Lian Hua, yearns for acceptance from those she loves, that they see her for who she is, beneath the bling of stage costumes, snappy footwork and the sizeable income she rakes in.

The tragedy that unfolds is an age-worn tale of love and betrayal. Her fall from grace is as spectacular and breathtaking as her heights of fame and fortune. Despite a heartbreak that is too much to bear, Lian Hua's indomitable spirit prevails. Her voice soars one final time, and like a flower that blooms, it dazzles us, humbles us.

I'm gonna own this DVD and watch it everyday mannn.
It's soo nice. The film was put together very well.

And a mini celebrity sighting today.
Met Cheryl at West Mall.
The poor girl tried to part ways with her boyfriend and hide when I pointed her out to Baby. lol I just merely said "Eh, Cheryl leh."
LOL.

FOR THOSE WHO HAVE NOT CAUGHT 12 LOTUS GO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAHH.

myheadisspinning.

2008-09-03T02:40:00.000+08:00

okay so i'm feeling a bit dizzy...

feels like i haven't blogged in donkey years.
anyway, its been 2-3 weeks since my party, and i was really disappointed there were no pictures to remind me of it, but, i could always count on my best friends to recall that part, right?

and i haven't forgotten a single moment of that day. hope it stays in my brain forever. lol.
my big 18. pssh.

anyyways, its the start of the fasting month recently.
every year during this time it feels like there's something different about the surroundings..like the air is.. clear. i dunno, it just feels calm to me.

haven't really done anything these few months ever since i quit NYP.
just eat, sleep, repeat. haha.
go out till late at night with baby and just slacking all the way.

i dunno, it just doesn't feel like the right time yet for me.
it just..drains the hell out of me.
and do you ever feel like you're not meant to do something and then you feel like you have to just for the sake of doing it?

yeah.
okay more in the morning i seriously got to hit the sack right now.
the pill is totally kicking in and if i stay longer i'll probably type like

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nvjfnvfknvfnvnvjfns,woekwijwujewdkmawfbrcdksnv
dnjcdnfnfdfdkjsnfdsnugnvfjvjfdvvfvfijruandsjnnfhfrbrnrkn

like that .

so more tomorrow.

*continued* Okay so i'm up and its 12 plus in the afternoon....waiting for baby to come we're gonna catch 12 Lotus later on before he goes for 'break fast" with his mates.

Prolly gonna stay home watching The Hills Season 2 this time. I finished watching the whole of Season 1 last night *cue stare* lol.

What? I was bored and other shows doesn't sound appealing to me. My 4 weeks holiday is coming to a close and I'm starting school in October with Mandy...or is it better to start in February?

Stillthinkingstillthinking..

OH! and Gossip Girl Season 2 is out ! I was amazed at how good the first episode turned out. Chuck seemed like a total different person in the episode. Somehow he looks charming when he's all...hurt. The boy's human after all.

More updates next time bye!

thank you.

2008-08-23T04:44:00.001+08:00

First of all, Happy Birthday Sharon!

And second, my party's over!
Everything went well.
And I have the birthday blues.
One time I was screaming in anger, the next I was all irritated, and the next moment I was all sad and eventually I broke down and sobbed in Baby's chest.

And its not the PMS, I swear!
My "auntie" just left the building!
Meaning the time of the month for me is NOT the time of the month for me already.

Anyway the camera decided to cock up during my birthday, so no pics.

Only memories. =)

Thank you Mandy, Michelle, Jie Lun & Naddie for the surprise sabo-me-with-cake session, playing catching with each other till my legs feel weak, for the birthday cake and hugs&laughter you gave, for staying back when everybody else has left, and for messing up the whole chalet with my birthday cake! LOL. I love you girls.

Sharon, Jinyu, Memah, Kok Quan, Fiez, Edward, Ivan, Azely for coming and also the presents, and for making me laugh with your nonsensical yet funny jokes. I miss you all. =)

Shan, Andrea, Redzwan, Redzal, Sanjeevi, Raymond & Zul, for the presents, I love the roses! And the marshmallows and the candy machine! Thank you, for being so warm as always =) I love yous guys. Huggies Dry!

Xiuying, Kristin for coming and the presents, I love them :) Yanqing, I miss your presence. Hugs to you lesbie girlies. LOL. Jk. <3

Baby & friends, for your random laughter and jokes. And Baby, for being there for me when I'm a wreck. I love you baby.

Mak,Ika,Baba,Abg Acad & Kak Su for turning up and helping out with everything. Love you many much.

And to everybody who's wished me as well, Sheryl, Zara, Weijian, Zooly, Fearghus, Jalal, etc.

I can't remember! ;P

Thank you guys for making my 18th party a memorable one. =)

I'm still up at 5 AM now and I couldn't sleep!

It's raining really heavily outside and there's like people downstairs shouting and all.

I'm so tired but I just couldn't sleep... Baby on the other hand is sleeping soundly. Unlike me!

I think I gotta hit the sack now before my brain really melts.

Party Invite

2008-08-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

Hello sweeties =)

Below is the details to my birthday party. Well, so called.
It's just a chance to meet all of my classmates again after so long.
In conjunction of my birthday as well.

Below is the virtual invitation and the list of peoples invited.

Michelle
Nadiah + Yunus
Jie Lun
Mandy + Seri
Amanda
Sharon + BF
Joann
Mirna
Kanages
Jinyu
Edward
Kok Quan
Hafiez
Fahmy`Memah
Fahmy
Zooly
James
Wei Jian
Ivan
Azely
Sherril
Zara
Shan
Vasellia
Andrea
Redzwan
Redzal
Pusheng
Xiuying, Kristin, Yan Qing
Shai + GF
Razif
Sham
Aznie
Syafiq

Hope to see y'all on the 22nd of August!
~~And find your best black/gold outfits!~~

P.S: On the other hand...I think you can dress whatever you like! Me no care! Hahha. I've decided to change the theme.

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Ann's Existing Situation
Seeks to express the need for identification in a sensitive and intimate atmosphere where esthetic or emotional delicacy can be protected and nurtured.

Ann's Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Ann's Restrained Characteristics
Relationships rarely measure up to her high emotional expectations and her need to be made the center of things, leading to disappointment . Always has mental reservations and tends to remain emotionally isolated and unattached.
Believes that she is not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood nor adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional involvement.
Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.

Ann's Desired Objective
Shelves her ambitions and forgoes her desire for prestige as she prefers to take things easily and indulge her longing for comfort and security.

Ann's Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to stress and anxiety. She wants congenial contact with others and scope for development, but feels that her relationships are empty and her progress impeded. She reacts with an intense and zealous activity designed to achieve her aims at all costs.

Take the ColorQuiz yourself right now!

What Nuraini Binte Ahmad Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

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Baby & I are eating dinner the other day and in front of us is a couple having dinner and Baby noticed this...........

Can you figure out what the words spell?

Look closely.

You guessed it! =)

"LAMPAR".

lols. actually it was spelled LAMPARD. but, well, we were sitting at an angle that made us see the words "L.A.M.P.A.R" only.

poor guy. I edited the pics cos theres a lil boy smiling at the cam. creepy. and i wanna protect the guy's identity while, well, makin fun of him. it wasn't intentional! lol.

And this.

Don't know what's that?

It's a tissue stuffed into an aircon slot. =.=

Singaporeans. They complain alot. And when they do have something as essential, they do this.

Tsk.

Till next time. I'll blog after my party!

its August!

2008-08-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

;)

2008-07-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

welllllll been busy planning for my birthday party and running around town finding stuffs for my birthday and taking care of Babyboy.

he's been sick for 2 weeks now and still not yet fully recovered.

get well soon baby.

i let him rest today for fear his fever might come back

and that's the last thing i wanna have because he's been unable to attend school since this monday.

and i really hate being home sometimes because it'd make me sooo lazy that i just wanna lie

down and eat all day.

and just laze, y'know?

so i've been on this website putting on clothes for cartoon celebs/models lol

see how bored i am???

:) well enjoy.
in case you're wondering why i dress the celebs according to colors, i just felt like it so that's why hehe =)

Nicole Richie: Simple

Paris Hilton: Heiress Collection

Vicki B: Posh Collection

Paulina Porizkova: Diva Series

Happy 15th Anni Baby

2008-07-29T15:00:00.000+08:00

its our anni today, been together for 1 year & 3 months..
and i must say this is the first proper anni since the start of this year...
well, this year is the start of all problems a real couple should face.
last year, well, we didn't have time for it(??) due to family disapproval, and some other shit that we never want to happen but they did...

i feel more secure now and really calm.
one thing i know, is that when it hurts being in a relationship, it just won't work out and you'll never be happy no matter what the other party do or say.
better to leave for awhile and rethink about it all...
Absence makes the heart grow fonder...which indeed proved to be true :)

Baby's been sick this past week..
and his fever reached an all time high yesterday..
he came over & I brought him to the doctor.

went home, cooked & fed him his meds
fortunately today he's alright and better :)
made him 3 postcards lol ( i know you miss them alot baby! )

not gonna go far today because he just recovered.
maybe to a movie & lunch & send him home to let him rest.
he has school tmr & i have a shopping date to go with dear Mandy.
I'm gonna look for Baby's shirt too :)

wheeeee.
Happy happy happy day.
I can't wait to see Baby ltr! :):):):):)

gained 2 more.

2008-07-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

(dont disturb the babyboy when he's hungry)

see lah. some people really want me to become fat right?

ok here's my diet for the past week.

lunch at botak jones.
while waiting for our food...we ordered 2 sets of the Cajun Chicken. the chef gave a generous amount of fries. mmmm.

dinner at niko niko.
lunch at home(super fattening)

dinner at popeye's.
(also very generous servings!)

tell me how can you NOT gain 3 kg in just a week?

i lost 6 kg in 2 weeks!

gotta get them fats burning before the 22nd.

IDIOT.

tomorrow gonna have breakfast at Al-Ameen.

die ah.

anyways..Baby&I have been under the weather

and obviously the sickness doesn't affect my appetite at all!

weird.

WE LOVE CAJUN FRIES & CAJUN CHICKEN AND CAJUN DANCE PARTY!!!!!!!!!

WHEE.

2008-07-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

i hope this world is just a little bit fair and forgiving.i feel violated, i feel worse than anything in the world.i feel cold, i feel there's nothing to smile about.this feeling, it robs the whole soul out of you.
i hate fighting more than anything.the worst thing i hate is to see you angry.especially when i caused you to be.i know i shouldn't..but it feels dishonest.
why is the world having a biased thinking?why can't they open up and accept everything.i wish they won't be so narrow-minded and learn that everything, and everyone, needs to learn acceptance and embrace individuality.
i hate to learn that you've been spying and checking up on me.i know you cared alot until you have to do this.but it makes me feel like i don't deserve privacy in carrying on my lifenormally without being watched.
stop it.